Self Portrait - Limited Edition of 20 Photograph

I have turned the camera on myself as subject from the earliest days of picture making. In the beginning, I believed it was about my embarrassment to ask others to pose for me, but looking back, I always had a desire and need to express aspects of myself. I was looking to give voice to myself, even where I was silent as a subject. I think I've always felt a conflict about what I'm trying to say to myself about me, and what I feel comfortable saying to others. So, these works have been self exploration as much as self narrative. This work is made from a 4x5 Type 55 Polaroid negative from about 1990 or so. This type of film choice would have been used simply to test camera exposure on a view camera, before the actual exposure was captured on conventional film. I found this negative stuck to a bunch of old prints, and it shows a lot of damage from improper storage. But to my artist's eye, this affect on the negative produces a unique and interesting image that speaks to me today. I haven’t been ablate locate any of the conventional negatives from this series, just a few Type 55 Polaroid negatives remain. When I made this negative originally, I was heavily influenced by Joyce Tenneson's work, and I made large number of self portraits in the studio with her work in mind. The resulting print from a damaged negative displays the “me” of today, as well as the “me” of 30 years ago.