Social anxiety Painting

All my paintings have in common a mental reality, not a physical one. I am against painting that is based only on observation and theory, painting as if done by robot, painting that has the safety net of theories in painting. I want to explain what and how I paint, I will define it as a relationship between a mode of observation (internal and external) and a way of expressing it. This is the answer for which some works need to express the idea of figurative, others go to abstract or symbols and each one needs a different way to be realized. I do not paint a landscape, idea, theme, in an established pictorial way, I do not follow the theories and clearly established criteria. Depending on the psychological state of what I want to express, then I use one of many modes of expression in painting. In painting you can use color and size not only according to the physical reality, but also according to the mental reality. I am convinced that everyone had the surprise to find and find in places that have a different outline and other physical and emotional dimensions. After a while, longer or shorter, the fountain from which the water once drank changed its size. I do not paint with the same emotion, but under an emotional complex, this is why some works are intuitive, others are strongly rationalized. In each paper I had to tolerate the uncertainty, not knowing where the idea goes, to change the way the subject is played. There were quick endings, but there were also roads that closed and I had to resume and investigate what I want and I like the search. I tried to formulate what happens when I stand in front of a canvas, without exposing all the "cognitive maneuvers", the interpretation is left to those who regard, the benefit is both. This is what those who have already started digesting my paintings from the three years since I woke up in painting know this. So let's see outside what is not foreign to us inside!